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There's no other way to put it. This year has been hard. There have been problems I never would've anticipated a year ago, and others that had been brewing for some time have come to a head. I've come out of the past year with new scars, both outside and inside.

And I'm so incredibly thankful.

You see, this year was so hard because I have so very much to lose. To say that I lead a charmed life is a gross understatement. I am fortunate far, far beyond what I deserve.

So, as is the way at this time of year, here's an incomplete list of things I'm thankful for :

* My real extended family, the Amorphous Squiggle. It's a large and far-flung tribe, and I haven't met them all, but I'm still proud to call them my tribe. And the ones I have met? You guys are amazing, wonderful people, and it's a privilege to count myself among you, and a delight to know that we have a connection over and above just friendship.

* The Horde, my immediate family and the absolute best thing in my life. The five of you are utterly indispensable to me, and my greatest source of joy. I love you guys.

* The Horde, part 2: We're all still here. We're all still together. We're spending the day with each other, and just shared a meal at the same table. It didn't have to work out this way. There've been too many moments this year when I didn't think it would. And yet, here we are.

* My extended social circle - friends, tweeps, and especially the whole Freaks/Mellow Mushroom crew! My god you people rock! Everything is better and more fun when you guys are involved.

* My bio-family, who regularly disappoint me with their politics and woo, but without whom I wouldn't be me.

* Gir. 'Nuff said. I'm incomplete without this little machine, and he's treated me so well this year. As is the case with every single one of my relationships, I haven't spent enough time with him.

* The pets - Trogdor, Reina, Ruby, Misty, Onyx, Winston, and Rosie. Sometimes irritating, often inconvenient, all-too-frequently messy and gross. But they still make our lives better, and I'm glad we have them.

* The Cheat - Your time with us was far, far too short, but I'm so glad you got to be part of our world. Someday I'll be able to think about you at length (or write about you) without crying, though apparently today isn't that day.

* Despite what redheadlass's mom's psychic predicted, joreth and I still don't have a child. :-D

* For that matter, I don't have a child with anyone, despite many lovely, thoroughly enjoyable attempts! ;-)

* My job. To put it mildly, this is a mixed blessing, as my job is also the single biggest root cause of stress and upset in other aspects of my life. However, at a time of economic uncertainty I remain gainfully employed, at a job that I generally enjoy and at which I excel, working with good people who appreciate what I do. For better or worse, it's also served as a place of security of sorts. It's not always fun, but it's a place where I feel… safe. It's also easier to understand - a simplified microcosm with straightforward goals where I can build, fix, and help. And it is getting better.

* The election. Seriously, we not only dodged a big, horrible bullet, but the down ballot election results went far better than I dared hope. I see it as a resounding statement in favor of reality, sanity, and basic human decency. I also can't help but see it as a message to the rest of the world: "Yes, the US has cruel, delusional crazies, but they're not the majority!"

* We no longer have combat troops in Iraq. (This is balanced, of course, by the fact that the troops in Afghanistan are now fighting the longest war in US history.)

* The basics, and let's not overlook them. We are alive, in a time where our technological progress is unmistakable and our social progress, while inconsistent, muddled, and full of setbacks, is nevertheless trending toward a world of less violence, greater respect for human rights, and an increasing value placed upon both reason and compassion for the most disadvantaged of us. We have so much more to do, so much wrong to set right, and it seems as though our world is imposing some increasingly solid deadlines on us. But our species is practically defined by our ability to create new tools and come up with novel new solutions. We adapt. Our technology increases. We persevere and thrive. That's a hell of a record to build upon, and gives me tremendous hope for the future.

And for that, I will always be thankful.


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Nov. 23rd, 2012 01:39 pm (UTC)
Happy Thanksgiving!
You do deserve everything you have and more! All of you do!

Nov. 23rd, 2012 06:43 pm (UTC)
Nov. 29th, 2012 02:10 am (UTC)
I don't hit LJ much anymore and I'm not sure where I fit into your monkeysphere these days but I'm glad that you're in a positive place and have a surplus of things to be thankful for.

Nov. 29th, 2012 02:29 am (UTC)
I don't hit LJ regularly either, but your place in my monkeysphere is permanently secured. *hug*

So how the hell have you been? I feel completely out of touch!
Nov. 30th, 2012 01:57 am (UTC)
Doing Good!

New job, new car (zoom!).

Spending tons of time SCUBAing, kayaking, visiting parks, and other such pursuits.
Who ever thought I would come to be this outdoorsy. =p

...of course I offset this by engaging in a fair amount of girlie shopping.
Throw in some wine tastings, a celtic festival, and a ren faire or two and that covers a lot of it.

The only real down note of late was that my brother committed suicide by diving off of the Skyway in September so that was "fun".
...and it showed me that there are a lot of morbid ass ambulance chasers out there who have nothing better to do than speculate and report on such incidents on the internet.
Dec. 1st, 2012 09:21 am (UTC)

First and most importantly, I'm so very sorry to hear about your brother! That's simply awful, and I've seen how it can affect those left behind.

I've seen this because Keirston's mom committed suicide. By jumping off the Skyway. In September. (September 13, specifically) Keirston became a mom (!) less than a week later. She was counting on her mom to teach her how to be a mom, which makes the whole situation that much more tragic, but she seems to be doing a heroic job of carrying on.

Nov. 29th, 2012 02:29 pm (UTC)
Yay! Tracy! Love your new icon!
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